I wish a happy, safe, and Merry Christmas to all of you readers.
I really am so sorry about not blogging for a few weeks there, I have been trying to take some time for myself, which although has been mostly self-destructive, in every way, I promise… and hope, that the alone time has helped in some way, to help me focus on my goals and dreams for 2013.
I do not have internet at my apartment, frankly I can’t afford it. But there are free wifi alternatives in my town, and I hope to utilize them with the mini laptop my parents loaned me for blogging use.
Otherwise I have a new program for the gym, thanks to my trainer, and these GORGEOUS competition earrings thanks to Santa
I am really happy right now, and will try and recreate this Christmas happiness, every single day for the next year to come.
Today would have been 6 years with Matthew. I am having just the hardest time with this. Totally difficult time. I found myself crying all last night, I cried this morning. Just looking through photos, reading old notes. It’s a very difficult thing to process, I hope it gets better over time and that with my goals staring at me in the face, that I learn to stop numbing it all out.
I once again wish you and your families a blessed day. Love you.
-Constance
You sound like you are having a rough time. Break-ups can be really difficult. Crying can be a good release. Even when it is the right thing for you it doesn’t mean it is the easy thing. Keep working on finding ways to be good to yourself. I am looking forward to the new year and following your rise to a fierce competitor in June! Oh, and those earrings are gorgeous!!!
Break-ups are hard and take time. Allow yourself to be sad, mad, happy, frustrated…all in one day. Eventually, you will be on top of the world again!
Santa must think you are pretty awesome…good things…think good things!
I’ve been thinking of you a lot, Constance. Sending a huge hug your way. I know this feels like a totally crap time, but it too will pass. Just keep holding on to that each day and letting the light in. You’ll come out stronger and wiser and able to really experience the highs of life. In the meantime, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and know that we are all sending you so much love from across the miles (mine is coming to you from Australia!).
Constance, I am new to your blog. I want to commend you in your sharing of such personal thoughts, feelings, ups and downs throughout your last year. No doubt this is a most difficult time for you. Please remember one day at a time. If I may offer any advice it would be to allow yourself a (brief) period of time of grief, then put the momentoes away. A (psychologist) friend of mine said to me (30 yrs. ago!)that keeping them open is like fanning the embers of a fire. If you stop fanning, eventually the flames and hurt subsides. Her words of wisdom have stuck with me. Do not look back but look forward. You are young, bright, funny and have an excellent understanding of life’s issues. You should take great pride in your successes; don’t lose your focus. You have sooo many opportunities ahead of you in your life.
Here’s to a happier and healthier 2013 x
Missing you!!
Hi! Merry Christmas and happy new year! hope you are feeling better about things now and are moving on! yay to a new year!x
Everything okay?
Hoping your Ok Constance. Sending big hugs your way xoxo
Hello
Love your blog, its so inspirational. I read your entire previous blog yesterday. You are my no. 1 motivation in doing this :-)
I just started the Dukan yesterday and am also blogging about it here: mydukandietdiaries.wordpress.com
PS: Have added you to my blogroll:)
Constance- I miss you terribly. Please let us know you are ok, even if you don’t feel like blogging.
Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you this week xoxoxo… you can always email me… Sandi @ flamidwyfe1@aol.com.
~Sandi