I wish a happy, safe, and Merry Christmas to all of you readers.
I really am so sorry about not blogging for a few weeks there, I have been trying to take some time for myself, which although has been mostly self-destructive, in every way, I promise… and hope, that the alone time has helped in some way, to help me focus on my goals and dreams for 2013.
I do not have internet at my apartment, frankly I can’t afford it. But there are free wifi alternatives in my town, and I hope to utilize them with the mini laptop my parents loaned me for blogging use.
Otherwise I have a new program for the gym, thanks to my trainer, and these GORGEOUS competition earrings thanks to Santa
I am really happy right now, and will try and recreate this Christmas happiness, every single day for the next year to come.
Today would have been 6 years with Matthew. I am having just the hardest time with this. Totally difficult time. I found myself crying all last night, I cried this morning. Just looking through photos, reading old notes. It’s a very difficult thing to process, I hope it gets better over time and that with my goals staring at me in the face, that I learn to stop numbing it all out.
I once again wish you and your families a blessed day. Love you.