Just Wondering…

I know, I know this isn’t a blog post to motivate and explore whats going on in my life. I just am hoping that by putting this question out to you guys I can get some answers.

This is going to seem random, bear with me:

Well actually, I’ll give you a quick update… feeling fine. I keep getting looks and comments that are telling me: You have gained weight… but I am afraid to say anything… when will you start training again?!

I know it’s obvious, I’m frustrated… but Monday will be here before I know it. I’m partying all weekend, I have plans every day and then I’m regaining my focus and taking you with me every step of the way.

So there.

Now for my question:

Do any of you guys have information on nutrition and fitness as a career? Do you know what school is good to get an education in this field? I know it might seem weird since I have been on a mental break these past few weeks… but I am interested in learning more and actually doing this as a career.

I am 21 years old. I love doing research on diets and nutrition and I have been doing the same with fitness (although not as much). This is the only interest I’ve ever had, the only thing I have ever stuck with. I don’t know. If you have any information about career opportunities… I really do love helping people with diets and nutrition plans and would love to get educated so I’m not just blabbering about my own experience and actually have facts to back it up.

Thanks, GOOD CHOICES! Always. ;)

xoxo

PS: See you bright and early Monday morning!

Mental Health Break?

That’s what I keep calling what I’m doing… this is brutal to try and explain to the majority of you who are so successful in your dieting or trying to be and struggling… but I have taken a mental health break.

Living at my parents, with no access to my things, finally found an apartment close to my work that I can afford. Pushed back my competition date to the spring and over a year of dieting strictly I guess had taken their toll? I was so easily irritable, snapping at everyone and when I cheated… I cheated hard. I was so down on myself, full of guilt. Then the transition from Cruise to Consolidation was so sudden.

I didn’t know what to do.

So I decided to give myself a mental health break. 2 weeks and 2 days of it. I kept telling myself “today I am back on track, following Dukan… I can do it” but then my sisters birthday would come up, or friends whom I haven’t been able to hang out with much would invite me out and I would get off. Kept pushing it next day… okay tomorrow… OKAY TOMORROW THIS TIME FOR REAL!

The thing is, I wasn’t enjoying treating myself to restaurant meals or homemade meals with my family because I was constantly putting my actions down. So I said to myself (with the direction of a friend of mine) that I was going to start over October 1st. I will hit the gym, I will get back onto dieting Monday October 1st, no excuses, and no cheating.

Well… I made the decision and have since just eaten what I want when I want it.

Bad decision on my part… absolutely horrible decision. I am afraid of weighing myself because I feel MASSIVE. I feel OBESE… I barely fit in any of my clothing, I have headaches, I have a tummy roll… where my almost abs used to be… my muscles do not show even a little… I feel self-conscious and have NO confidence. I am supposed to go out this weekend and I am so petrified… I know I wont feel amazing and sexy like the last time I went out. I haven’t taken a picture of myself all week, I feel so disgusted.

I am dissapointed, I feel hideous.

I keep telling myself, as of October 1st I will be skinny and hot again… just need to put off seeing anyone until then… but I know it will take twice as long to lose the weight than it took to put it on. Ugh.

So that’s where I am at, my headspace, my bad decision making.

I’m still alive… just ashamed to blog. But you know what, we are not all perfect. ;) I will be back busting my butt on Monday. I feel so stupid saying that… why can’t I start tomorrow? Right now even! It’s so embarassing to say but I have really clinged onto the idea of these next few days in my mind.

So going to try and avoid the guilt, I’m just going to do this and then be on my way. Back to the gym (which I have really missed…) back to dieting. No excuses and just nothing… Will do a proper weigh in Monday morning, with measurements and underwear photos.

I have been looking at bodybuilders non-stop since taking this mental health break… I want to look like all of them so badly. Ugh.

Love you guys! Keep making good choices, please! Make good ones for me too! MONDAY OCTOBER 1st! I AM SORRY I AM SO WEAK! :(

xoxo

FAQ – Pt 1 (Also, A Male Perspective!)

So I mentioned a few posts ago about WordPress and how it offers summaries of what people Googled to find my blog. There are a few interesting ones (some of them are reaaally funny, like: “buff guy with little arms”) so I want to answer a few questions, especially some that are being asked more than once so that there is a clear answer for those who Google it in the future layed out in my blog.

Did I make sense there?

So here are 5 of my top Frequently Asked Questions. I hope my answers help a little. I want to make more of these, if you do have a question about my experience following the Dukan Diet, about the general outline of the Dukan Diet, female bodybuilding, working out, anything, you can always comment somewhere on my blog or e-mail me at ciesee@hotmail.com

Also please note that I am not a Doctor and can only speak through my personal experiences following this diet and training for my competition. I might be wrong! Make your own assumptions, use your own experience and body as a guideline and look at other sources. xoxo

So todays FAQ are:

  1. Why Am I So Thirsty On The Dukan Diet?
  2. Can Protein Powders Help You Not Feel Hungry In Between Meals?
  3. Is Doing 2 Hours Of Cardio Okay While Following the Dukan Diet?
  4. Is Doing the Attack Phase for 20 Days Okay?
  5. How Many Carbs Per Day on Dukan?

I decided to include A Male Perspective on the 5 questions for this week, let me know if that’s something you guys like or want to see more of since Prawn is always up for writing little blurbs and giving his opinion on stuff. If you have any questions you want to direct at him you can always ask by e-mail or on the blog and he will be more than happy to give you his Male Perspective on the subject. ;)

1. Why Am I So Thirsty On The Dukan Diet?

Well I have a few theories about this, there was a time where I was absolutely unbearably thirsty while following the Dukan Diet. My lips were always cracked, my skin was also cracking on my hands and I was breaking out a lot as well. It was awful. Prawn actually suffered from dehydration and fainted at work. His blood pressure was incredibly low and whenever he would stand he would get incredibly light headed.

I believe that this diet is very acidic, and unbalances your natural PH level. Meat is very acidic, and eating it in large quantities without many alkaline foods to balance everything out makes your body toxic in a sense, which might be a reason for your seemingly relentless thirst.

Another theory (and I’m no scientist… so I can’t really convey this idea properly…) is that since your liver or kidneys or something needs to create carbs for your body since you are not providing it with any through diet, it releases a lot of toxins which dries you out, so you need to drink a ton of water to flush out that bi-product. Like I said, I don’t really understand the science of it all, I can only tell you that through my experience, since I have started drinking adequate amounts of water I feel INFINITELY better.

I anticipate my thirst now, drinking between 8-11L of water a day and I feel amazing, no headaches, no dried lips, no more dizzy spells. I don’t get sick anymore like I was for a few months following Dukan. I feel so much better.

So just drink water! If you feel thirsty while following Dukan… drink! This seems to make sense to me. Do like I do and drink throughout the entire day, even and especially when you don’t feel thirsty. There are no problems with drinking water so just do it!

I find it helps curb the odd craving, ontop of making me feel full longer and solving that whole thirsty thing. So do it! Go drink some water now! J

A Male Perspective

You’re thirsty because you’re not drinking enough water. Why though? Who honestly cares about the science these days! Just drink some water!

-Prawn

2. Can Protein Powders Help You Not Feel Hungry In Between Meals?

Uhm… this is a weird one to answer. Yes and no I guess? Now I know a lot of people will make a shake in replacement of meals, but I personally don’t find that protein powder ever really filled me up, especially since I mixed mine with water and always opted for a little-to-no carb fat free protein powder.

I know some of the bodybuilders I follow will chug down protein shakes in replacement of one or two of their meals. You also have to remember that there are two kinds of protein powders (well okay… there are more obviously, but there are two that I used) whey protein powder which is meant to be absorbed by the muscles quickly and casein protein powder which gels in your tummy and is meant to be released slowly (such as overnight).

I wouldn’t choose protein powder as a snack in between meals, I would pack cut up veggies in snack bags or even slices of fat free chicken or turkey, or just small portions of chicken breasts or something (sorry, I’m really not big on snacking… I don’t know of a lot of options.) You could also try the 5-6 meals approach and change one or two of those for protein shakes.

I take my protein shakes one for breakfast, and then one after my weight training so that the amino acids and such get shot right into my awaiting muscles. Then maybe a casein shake before bed. That is how I would use that product since I have heard it is important if you are snacking, to keep your snacks under 100 calories and a protein shake is what? 115cal?

It might be different for you though, figure out what times work best for you and seem to give you the best results, play around with amounts and timings and maybe take a half-shake in between meals if you are feeling a little hungry or you feel like you need a bit of protein. Everyone is different!

A Male Perspective

Eating protein shakes between meals is okay. Its eating meals in between protein shakes that’s a problem.

-Prawn

3. Is Doing 2 Hours Of Cardio Okay While Following the Dukan Diet?

Hm… No. Not really suggested. You do cardio to raise your heart rate and burn fat. You want to work hard and stay within a fat burning range and I think staying within that range while following a low-carb diet for 2 hours isn’t a good idea.

Especially if you are getting dehydrated while on Dukan, or feeling light headed as is. Dukan actually suggests against doing any heavy exercise while following his diet and as someone who tried to do 1.5 hours of cardio a day following Cruise… I can tell you that it’s possible, but absolutely brutal.

I was grumpy, and not only grumpy… I was a wide-array of emotions, absolutely all over the place. I upped my oat bran to 3tbsp a day and I was still not getting enough fat or carbs in my diet to really get through over an hour of cardio and not pass out while following Cruise. I would not suggest it. I was moody, erratic, and impatient. I was also suffering from continuous exhaustion (an unfortunate side-effect of the Dukan Diet for me) and doing that much cardio… oh man. Just did not gel well with me and with the diet.

Of course if you are going for a walk, walking your dog, a light jog even, maybe 2 hours wont be so bad. If you are doing it every once in a while because you are training for… I don’t know, a marathon maybe? Then go for it. See how you feel though and if you feel light headed please stop and drink some water or slow down.

A Male Perspective

Can you do 2 hours of cardio a day? After seeing Constance do it… its entirely possible but you’ll probably hate your life.

-Prawn

4. Is Following the Attack Phase for 20 Days Okay?

Well… no. Don’t follow the Attack Phase for 20 days. While reading the Dukan book when I originally started Dukan (about a year and 3 months ago) I made the decision to follow the Attack Phase for 10 days. I didn’t know about the website where I could calculate my true weight, where Dukan suggests an amount of days to follow each phase.

Dukan states in his book that if you are an ‘incredibly motivated person’ and have over 100lbs to lose you could do the Attack Phase for 10 days, which is why I made that decision. I lost 8lbs doing so. I would never suggest doing it for over 10 days, this past time around I followed Attack for 5 days, but then proceeded to eat little to no veggies throughout the next week or so. So I was on Cruise… but I was still technically following an Attack Phase since I was not eating vegetables (the main difference between the two phases).

I’ll tell you one thing, once I started eating vegetables I felt so much better. I felt more awake and less grumpy. It also helped to have a bit of variety added to my meals, making the whole experience less monotonous and myself more likely to stick with it.

So no, don’t do a 20 day Attack Phase. I generally suggest 1 day for every 10lbs you want to lose, or if you want to try toughing it out, go for max 10 days and then enjoy the veggies and variety that come with the Cruise Phase.

Also, think about WHY you want to do a 20 day Attack Phase? Do you think this will help you lose the weight faster? Calm down, take it slow, enjoy the experience. You will drop the weight fast enough with veggies included so just be a bit patient. The weight drops!

A Male Perspective

No don’t do the attack phase for 20 days. Its a dumb idea.

-Prawn

5. How Many Carbs Per Day on Dukan?

Well here are the daily oat bran allowances per phase:

Attack Phase – 1.5tbsp

Cruise Phase – 2tbsp

Consolidation – 2.5tbsp

Stabilisation – 3tbsp

Otherwise you can get carbs from your veggies. You are not allowed high carb vegetables while following Dukan like carrots, corn and potatoes but you do get carbs from other, allowed veggies like lettuce and other greens, cauliflower, etc.

Hope that answers your question. :S No carbs allowed, like alcoholic beverages, pastas, breads, only oat bran and veggies.

A Male Perspective

The amount of carbs a day on Dukan depends on your phase.

-Prawn

One Step At a Time

Well you guessed it, I didn’t exactly stick to my ‘good choices’ plan for yesterdays meals. It was all fine and dandy until the end of my shift where I hit an emotional snafu at work and justified going out to dinner with the Prawn, which turned into a binge, of course. -.-

But we are done! We can’t afford to go out anymore anyways… but regardless, done. No more eating out, no more bingeing. It’s over. I was just staring at myself in the mirror this morning, fighting back tears, looking at the giant pseudo-pregnant belly that was lunging it’s way at my eyes, replacing the baby-abs that were there not even a week ago…

This has got to stop.

I keep saying that I need to sit down and make a plan for my offseason gym-time. That I need to write up a Dukan-Consolidation plan for myself and go for it. My dad made a good point yesterday though… Why can’t I just go to the gym and lift weights? Just pick them up and put them down. No stress, just follow my old program and lift as heavy as I can, push myself. Just do it.

Why do I need to write up a plan and then go to the gym? Why can’t I just go… and worry about a plan later? Just go for fun?

That sounds lovely. So after work tonight Prawn and I will go do our Tim Hortons coffee-chat and then it’s off to the YMCA for me for heavy lifting, zoning out with my tunes and relaxation. The me-time I have been missing out on since I have taken my mental break from training.

I am really looking forward to this, it’s a good sign, right? :D

I still feel really happy with my decision, and just generally happy even with all the bad food decisions I have been making. I also feel more awake during the day although by 7-8pm I am toast and I have a REALLY hard time getting out of bed even with 10 or more hours of sleep. I wonder what caused this? Was my body just completely trashed from my attempted prep? Hmmm…

Well the next 6 months are going to fly by, they always do. I can’t wait to try again for June and to really plan it all out, you know? I bought a little agenda that I want to use to track my weight, my progress, and the things I need to get done before my next competition, like signing up for it and buying my suit (which was causing me soooo much stress this time around…)

Also, when I eat less healthily, I find I don’t drink my water… weird how those habits seem to go hand in hand.

This transition is proving itself to be brutally hard. Getting back on the wagon is way more difficult than just staying on it. But I can do it! I have my money today but I wont be going out for lunch. I made poor breakfast decisions including toast AND cereal (woah is me… -.-) but lunch will be coffee and will NOT be wandering out for Subway or another fast-food substitute that can be found near my place of work.

Then at 2:45 I will eat the last of my fish, then workout and home for a delicious supper of… probably fish. I might buy a steak. Good choices all around! I might even treat myself to some Greek yogurt. Yummy. J

I got the apartment by the way! Will be moving in November 1st. So way far away from now… -.- Living at my parents house until then. I am happy to be at home to be honest, I missed my family. But I also miss having my own fridge and cooking space. I think once I move out (it’s literally a 5 minute walk from my gym, and a 5 minute walk from my work!!!) it will be much easier to stick with a workout program as well as my dieting, but I can’t use that as an excuse not to try my best right now!

How have you been doing? Will you be working out today? You should set some time for yourself to just go and bust your butt either running outside or at a gym. Take a class or something, get your body grooving! What is an hour of your time? Nothing! And you know what, it’s an hour for YOU, go be selfish, and then let me know how you feel afterwards, bet you it’s amazing.

xoxo

Consolidation Day 1

I feel much better than yesterday, and yet still riddled with guilt and confused feelings. I should have weighed myself this morning but I was too scared and ashamed.

Breakfast, 8:30am = bad choices

Two slices of toast with peanut butter and jam.
The bread was Consolidation allowed but the sugar-loaded and fat loaded pb&j was not. Bah.

Lunch, 11:30am = good choices!

One filet of basa fish. (White fish)

Snack, 2:45pm = good choices!

One filet of basa fish. (Same as lunch)

Dinner, 6pm

One filet of basa fish. (Same as other meals)

Now hopefully I can stick to this and I wont be justifying to myself any extra foods. If I do, I hope to pick up yogurt and at least make a good decision about it.

*****

So, first day of Consolidation so far going well. After the toast this morning my belly felt REALLY full and bloated. I could visibly see a huge difference from only a few days ago. 3 days of bad eating really caught up to me right in the midsection.

I was scrolling through pictures I had taken of myself before I made the decision to postpone my competition. I felt really sad. I was so overjoyed with how I was looking, even if I wasn’t where I needed to be to compete. I was so happy with my new-lowest weight.

I am happy with my choice, and I don’t regret it, or the bingeing. They are decisions I made and I can’t change them now. I just need to look forward to the gym again, get myself in the groove.

I know this prep messed up my body because since I have stopped hitting the gym and started eating junk foods (3 days) I have been getting at least 10 hours of sleep a night and I wake up every morning absolutely exhausted. More tired than I ever was during the month of onseason I attempted.

I am hoping more sleep and slowly eating normal, healthy, whole, Dukan allowed foods will boost up my energy levels and get me excited for my return to weight training. I think I just need a few more days of relaxing my body first.

I have started looking into quick recipes I can try that are Dukan allowed, do you have a favourite you want to share with me? I really don’t know what to eat lately so I would love any and all suggestions & hopefully try them for myself! Desserts are especially welcome. ;) J

I am working on my mental state, trying to rid myself of any negative feelings, accept my choice as my own and what needed to be done and move on. 6 months will speed by, I know this because the last 6 months of training has sped by. I am amazed by the gains I have made in the past 6 months and how much more I love my body and so I am excited to see what the next half a year gives me.

I get to celebrate thanksgiving with my family… J

I am so at peace right now. No stress. Just happiness. I am focusing on myself, I am going to keep working on myself and on my body. I will make it on that stage! I know I keep saying that, but it’s what I need to keep telling myself. I have not given up, I have just refocused my goals. Thanks for the advice and help yesterday. You guys are right, it might not have been, but I feel like November was really pushing it in terms of adequate time to get ready.

So setting new goals and working towards them! I really want to sit down and not only plan myself through Consolidation, but plan monthly goals, weekly goals, and then overall goals for my offseason to make sure I don’t lose focus and I keep my eye on June! I need to make sure I plan this thoroughly so that this doesn’t happen to me in 6 months. I will start saving my money right now (I hadn’t planned on all the expenses related to competition… now I know!) and I will be ready!

Otherwise nothing new to report. I feel grossed out with myself over how I ate during the past few days but that’s behind me and over. See, I was so focused and so determined not to cheat once… and it blew up in my face. Happens to the best of us, you just got to move on. ;)

Love you guys! Have a great day and make good choices, never give up!

xoxo

Big Tough Decisions

I made a lot of big, tough decisions this weekend.

I applied for an apartment, which wasn’t the apartment I was originally gunning for.

I moved onto phase 3 of the Dukan Diet and entered my offseason, which for you who don’t know the bodybuilding terms quite yet… that means I have made my decision to not compete in November official, and I will be changing the date of my first bodybuilding competition to June 2013.

I made a few bad choices in light of this decision (that I have been thinking about making for about a week now) which include 3 days of bad food choices and bingeing… I feel gross, and disappointed. I am so afraid of everyone who put their faith in me being disappointed… I am so afraid of letting people down who told me they believed in me, but you know what, it is so unrealistic to think that I could make it in that little time. I didn’t give myself enough of an offseason prior to my 12 weeks of intensive carb depletion. My weight was not going down as fast as it needed to for me to hit my target weight in time.

I could make up every excuse in the book, I could tell you any reason, the fact of the matter is, I was stressed, anxious about money and the time crunch. I was considering taking illegal caffeine pills to drop the weight faster and when I caught myself thinking this way, I realised that I could not compete this November and do so safely and I had a better chance giving myself a solid 6 month offseason to bulk up and gain the muscle necessary to compete in June.

It’s no big deal, but I am anxious about telling my family and friends. I don’t know how to say it to them. I feel like I gave up, I feel like I wasn’t tough enough to last through prep and I feel really sad. But it was making me sick and you know what? I LOVED going to the gym before my onseason. I loved it. I would push myself hard, go heavier and heavier with the weights, I loved seeing my muscles get stronger and I loved the challenge… but after 2-3 times of sitting in the parking lot of my gym, unable to go in. After weeks of trying to push myself in the gym but not having the energy, at all, to complete my workouts or to up my weights… it’s time to give myself a good rest and then go back, and learn to enjoy weight training again, instead of constantly stressing about it and my progress.

I don’t need that stress, and I don’t need the monetary frustration that comes with competing right now, I found an apartment, I have my car payments and just don’t have the savings to do November.

So that’s that. It was such a tough decision and I’m still trying to deal with it, to forgive myself for not making it to the fall, for caving and giving in to temptation.

I feel lost, floundering in this new transition from phase 2 to phase 3… it’s difficult to get back on track.

Today is the last day of ‘Constance-Is-Upset-Bingeing’ I feel sick, I feel grossed out by myself. Onto Consolidation for me, going to maintain this weight and use the added carbs of this phase to push myself through my workouts. 2013 will be my year to go on stage and there is nothing wrong with that, I have not failed or given up because I am still doing it, just taking my time instead of trying to cram 6 months of prep into 12 weeks.

My goal was unrealistic, that’s all. Time to re-focus and make new goals, with a more realistic timeline, and then take the steps to achieve them.

Thank you for all your support and I’m sorry it was kindof for nothing, really I am. I am still working hard. I have not given up, really. I will get on that stage. I am looking forward to eating like a normal person though, veggies and Dukan-meals. Hopefully I will start making new recipes… actual recipes. I am so excited. No more plain chicken breasts and fish for a long-while.

No more bingeing also, I am so disappointed I did that… not a good response to the stress of my decision. I knew I would feel like shit and I do. Damnit.

Well, make good choices today, I know I didn’t. :S

I will tomorrow though! Tomorrow is a BRAND NEW DAY. Consolidation Day 1. J

xoxo

Second Month of Dukan Restart, On Track

Few quick stats:

  • I have lost 19.6/40.6lbs on this restart
  • Today is day 32 back on Dukan
  • 49 days until my competition! OOOOH MYYYYYY!!! :0

Good morning!

You remember when I said I didn’t want to weigh myself until at least Saturday… maybe even until a week from now?

Well… Saturday came early this week! :D

I can’t help it -.- It’s a habit I have formed! A year and almost 4 months (yep… that long!) of weighing myself every single day… it’s a hard one to break. I did everything right yesterday so I figured… I could just take a peak.

Glad I did! I dropped 0.6lbs… I’m down to my new lowest adult weight! (It feels so good to say!!!)

151.2lbs…

I can’t even believe it.

Making good choices is not always easy. Last night was particularly brutal for me. Went apartment hunting, which was fine. Did not see a single one I liked, at all, so I’m still gunning for my aunts condo-apartment.

I then proceeded to just… hormonally roller coaster for two and a half hours. Oh man, I was being a big baby. I was grumpy and really felt drained. I knew I had to workout, at least get some cardio in since I missed two days of the gym this week because of apartment stuff. I was in the parking lot of the YMCA and I went from crying about how tired I was, to being angry, angry at myself and at Prawn for various reasons, to being sad again, to finally motivated and then we would drive up to the YMCA entrance aaaaaand mental breakdown with me saying ‘no I’m not ready, I can’t do it, drive back to the parking’…

This happened for an entire TWO AND A HALF HOURS!

Flip-flopping… getting angry, feeling sad and depressed, justifying cheating to myself (over and over and over again…) saying I’m going to give up on November, boosting myself up, driving to the door, opening the car door… can’t walk out of the car drive me back to the parking please.

What a colossal waste of time… for both of us! Ugh I am so frustrated with myself right now.

I wanted to cheat, but, like I told Prawn last night, I didn’t want to cheat like eat some Greek yogurt (which I kept flipping-flopping about as well… or rotisserie chicken skin or whatever… I didn’t want to go out to a restaurant and order nachos or a dessert… I wanted to BINGE. I didn’t just have a craving for some specific food or to cheat, I actually just wanted to binge eat and it was weird recognising that craving.

I imagined about 50 different foods I just wanted to eat all at once, I wont torture you with the details but I am really disgusted with myself. Really.

I didn’t do it, I didn’t even eat chicken skin or anything, I kept to my strict food plan and this morning I really do feel so much better for it. I also REALLY didn’t want to exercise yesterday, it was causing me a lot of stress but at 8:30 I ran in and did the stairs for an hour and a half (8:30 was the VERY latest I could do it, since the gym closes at 10pm… I was cutting it close for sure.)

So I did it, it took me so much will and so much drive… I kept thinking about giving up and in the end I pushed through it (it was such a hard process… but I did do it!)

I hope this gets easier as time goes on, I really do. I got home late last night after my workout and just passed out right away, woke up this morning still tired and right back to it. Will not cheat today and will just GO to the gym after my apartment appointments. I’m just going to march straight into the Y, no dilly-dallying and just workout. I mean come on! I can do it.

So just goes to show you, hey, it’s SO BRUTALLY HARD. Motivating yourself and sticking to the plan is soooo hard, it takes time and even when you have lost 115lbs, it’s still a daily struggle to control those cravings and not give in.

Be strong today! I’m glad the scale rewarded me with a positive number, honestly if I had gained weight after all the struggle… Ooooh man I don’t even know what I would have done. Yet another reason I should absolutely not be weighing myself every day.

Have a good one, make good choices!

xoxo