Today marks 2 weeks back on dieting for me! Two weeks without cheating! I feel very proud.
One thing I am thinking about… Sunday will be my first family event… and I had decided already that I will be eating with my family for family events, included are birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, as well as Easter… Well this is a family birthday and I am just not sure what to do!
I am currently not thinking I will cheat… I just don’t really want to. My fears are that faced with the temptation when I have told myself I would allow family-event cheating… that I will binge and it will completely unwind me. :S
I don’t know what to do… also my ‘birthday’ is fast approaching… if you will remember, my family switched my birthday to November 4th… I am sad that I will not be competing the day before… and also nervous because the reason I changed the date is because my mum and I wanted to drink champagne to celebrate my 21st birthday and I wanted to eat birthday cake for the first time in a few years… right?
I don’t want to backtrack on my success, but at the same time… Bah. Do you understand? It’s a dilemma. I think I will look into Dukan-alternatives that are maybe allowed in Consolidation? We’ll see. :)
Otherwise I have had a great day today, food-wise. Work went by too slowly and I’m really tired right now.
Ugh. Actually really tired. -.-
I have been thinking a lot about bodybuilding. I am feeling excited to get back to the gym, feeling excited to cook… I need the weekend to be here like, right now, so my life can start! Although you know what, I am really glad I didn’t wait to get back on Dukan until the move… I would feel even more upset… and would have probably gained another 10lbs… woah. I have dropped almost 15lbs in the past two weeks… actually at the rate I was going at I would have gained probably 50lbs total! That is so brutal!
It’s a downward spiral, when you get out of control. Horrible. You need to stop yourself before it’s too late. You will only regret not starting sooner!
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